Codes and Keys

My world is getting a litter brighter, a little better, and a little more put back together.

Not that everything was completely shattered in a million pieces to begin with. But I'm feeling more confident about the way things are turning out (for now) and I feel like I just might be able to pull this off. Im more excited than ever to set out on this journey of life with my beautiful daughter and teach her everything there is to know about everything good and bad in the world. I'm so excited share the world with her. She is the only person that will ever be mine to love. Yes, I have lots of family. But she is my child. No one can ever be closer to you than your own children. They share your same blood. She's half of me. We'll go ahead and forget about whatever blood she got from her biological father. At least for now. Until she's old enough to know about and process that huge mess.

I'm working on self improvement. I'm working on building my resume and having the dream career that I've wanted. I'm working on losing weight and being happy with the person I see in the mirror. I can't truly love another person until I love myself. I am working on being at peace with the directions my life has taken and embracing those people around me that offer words of encouragement and support. I'm so thankful for my family whom I know will always be there. I have few quality friends, but for those few, I am very thankful. They keep me sane and help me realize that my issues could be much MUCH worse. They keep me grounded.

I don't feel like I need anything else. My daughter, my friends and family, love, my dreams, passion, and goals, and a career. What else is there, really? I might be a tiny bit hippy, but I'm PROUD.

You can call me a hippy but I am happy.

HippyMama=HappyMama

Transition

Well, yet again, my life is in a transitional period. I am now a single mother, trying to make it in this world. It's weird because I never thought I would ever have to write that sentence. But alas, life happens. I'm still figuring out what I'm going to do, but I have some pretty good ideas and I'm fairly certain that everything will be just fine. Even though this is not ideal, I'm kind of excited to prove how strong I am and that I can succeed in whatever I set my mind to. I am determined to be the best and provide for my daughter. I will do anything I need to do for her. And for me, too. But mostly her.

In other news, I had a job interview yesterday to teach art. I'm really hoping I get it because not only would they pay me really well, I would also love to get some experience teaching art. To make myself more marketable. I would like to be a fine arts teacher instead of just a theatre teacher.

More later! Avery is in the other room and it is very quiet. I have a feeling she is being naughty.